by Tara Love Ismail on Saturday, 22 May 2010 at 00:14
Today, in response to a dear sister regarding her feeling guilty I realised I was talking to myself. Reminding her of something I need to remind myself! :)
Although I understand that I am not responsible for how another feels, my whole life I have always taken responsibility for any negative feelings another feels because of me. I have recently learnt and come to understand that all I can do is trigger something which is already present within them. That I cannot make anyone feel anything that isn’t already there.
There is a part of me, that has yet to learn this lesson. And I thank God that I am ready and willing to see this. To love whatever comes to the surface in others and to continue loving me through any reflections people may impose on me of themselves.
I am ready and willing to release this old programming. To recognise and apply this lesson to all areas of my life. Until I have reprogrammed this part of my brain I will remind myself that I am not responsible for anyone’s feelings. And in fact, my light bringing their fears/insecurities to the surface is actually a blessing. For once it is on the surface it is just one step away from being in the light, all they need to do is recognise it as being themselves! I best serve this by remaining in love myself and not taking a role in the drama. How perfect, through serving you I serve myself, through loving me I love you (and vice versa for both!) God is Mind Bogglingly Perfect!
For me, I have felt very uncomfortable with comparison and with jealousy. Anytime someone, especially those closest to me was compared to me or I felt jealousy from them, I would immediately do what I could to reduce anything to be jealous of. Including overeat to keep me big and under perform at school, art or sport, all not massively but just enough not to disappoint/embarrass my mum.... lol how silly huh... bless!
I am ready to face any ‘ugly’ reactions my shining and being the best I can be may bring up in those who have yet to face the wounds that are triggered. I am ready to face them with love. Both for myself and for my brother or sister before me. I will stand in truth, with trust in the power of love and with integrity to myself. I will no longer react to others fear reactions with fear myself – I will not turn the ‘ugly’ness inwards anymore for what I do to me I do to you. I truly see that I help no one by dimming my light, regardless of if I like what comes up or not. I will definitely be out of my comfort zone for a while until I have fully installed this new programming, my love programming
I am ready to shine and treat me with love and light all-ways. In loving me I love you, in not playing a part in the drama, I love you.
O how amazing is love and how exciting to be bringing up so much in the light! How exciting is the transformation process!! I am buzzing!!! I love this cocoon! A butterfly is coming through soon to join you butterflies!!!
Thank you all so so much for all that you are - i am so blessed to be here with you all!
The love is deeeeep! So healing! Thank YOU! you reading this you all individually and collectively - i love you!
I See You
I Love You
Tara <3
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